12.10.17
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
The root of suffering is attachment. So, I'm trying not to get attached.
YOLO! ☺
Daddy's Girl.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Dad, thank you much for always helping me out financially so I can focus on becoming an independent woman. I love how we don't even have to say out loud that I'm your favorite daughter. You'll always be the first man in my heart. I love you, Daddy. Miss you much. ☺
Happy Fathers' Day!
It's time to feel infinite.
I was so hooked with Charlie and whether he'll really end up with Sam. Kaso, I was quite a bit disappointed when I was nearing the end of it. Si Charlie naman kasi. Sobrang torpe. Yun tuloy. Napag-iwanan.
Let's start with the perks. First, you don't stand out much, so you're safe. And when people soon notice and identify you as a wallflower, they make you fit in with them effortlessly and in the return, you earn the privilege of gaining their trust and some of the most well-kept / juicy secrets. You get to score invites to the hush parties and soirees just because peeps would like witnesses and they trust you will keep it to yourself. In short, wallflowers can be some people's Pandora's boxes. It's like being the secret keeper to scandals. In a subtle way.
Then, there's when you become too comfortable with being a wallflower, you tend to be passive. It would seem like you would just go with the flow and feel of the common crowd. You would be too compliant with staying at the sidelines, that you won't even have the courage to say and express with what you really feel. You've just completely hidden yourself well. Camouflaged with the paintings on the wall. And, malas mo na lang, if in the process, well, naging isa kang dakilang torpe.
I, would have to say I'm lucky I somehow overcome my being a wallflower in the past. I guess, people can relate to what I'm saying. Lahat naman siguro tayo, may moment na naging wallflower tayo. Remember when there was a time when you were scared to let people see through you and you don't want them to jump into conclusions about your personality, and you went to see the feel and beat of the crowd? Then, that's your wallflower moment. ♕
I would have to say my fave lines from the book itself would be the following:
Right now, we are alive and in this moment I swear we are infinite. - Charlie
Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like nothing? -Sam
We accept the love we think we deserve. - Charlie
Welcome to the island of misfit toys. - Sam
Be aggressive. Passive aggressive. - Patrick
You see things, and you understand. You’re a wallflower. – Patrick
Come on. Let's be psychos together. - Sam to Charlie
She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time. - Charlie to Sam
I definitely can't wait to see a perfect cast play a perfect book. ☺ Plus, I'm so hooked with the film's soundtrack, especially this ear candy by Imagine Dragons.
Listening to this ear candy is enough to make me feel infinite. ☺ So, there. Pasensya na sa sudden outburst. I just can't stop from ranting my random, senseless thoughts sometimes. Teehee.
The Future.
Friday, June 15, 2012
“I usually don’t like thinking about the future. I mean, let’s face it, you can’t predict what’s going to happen. But sometimes, the thing you didn’t expect is what you really wanted after all. Maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out where your going, and enjoy where your at.”
Introduction to Architecture
Monday, June 11, 2012
In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, relationships we
were afraid to have and decisions we waited too long to make. ☹
Wagas na regret. That's how my state of mind is right now. Just finished watching "Introduction to Architecture," and all I can say is, natakot ako bigla to live to a big regret.
The movie was about a first love gone wrong between two young friends. Almost the same one I had. Haha. Oo. Loser ako when it comes to my first love. Maybe because fear got the best of me. And I easily gave up. Or maybe sobrang mixed up yung singnals at hindi lang talagang nagkaintindihan. Hay, basta. Let's just say that my first love was a disaster. A complete mess.
I seriously don't want to end up like the characters in the movie. They just let themselves be so absorbed in misery and just let go of their love so fast. Andami kayang chances and opportunities for them to get together. Siguro, tama nga yung kasabihang "kung kayo talaga, magiging kayo talaga sa huli." Kahit ano pa man ang mangyari. Kasi gagawa at gagawa kayo ng paraan not to let each other go.
But for me, I guess it would take me great courage to do this feat. Siguro, kasi I'm so scared to put all my feelings into the open. Baka gawin lang yun reason ng ibang tao to get the best of me. Or maybe I just don't like the feeling of being embarrassed. Or ayoko lang to be hurt. Kasi baka hindi ko kayanin. Kaya nga kahit, I already felt it. Yun. Denial to the max parin ang peg ng lola mo. Maybe all I need is a little push, or a sign from that person. Or something. Basta.
Sana hindi pa nga huli. Kasi parang wala na akong reason or hope to hold on. Baka wala na nga akong babalikan. Or maybe may iba na.
Would it still be worth to take a risk and take a leap. Or baka, masaktan lang ako.
Baka this time, talagang i-regret ko na ang lahat ng nangyari samin. I'm scared to live with regret all my life. Baka di ko kayanin.
Fr now, maybe I'll just cry myself to sleep. Kasi walang chance pa talaga ngayon. Sobrang labo na.
Just wishing and hoping na meron pa akong pwedeng balikan. Sana somehow, meron pa. Aasa pa ko while slowly dying.
Wagas na sayang.
06.06.12
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
The most amazing things can sometimes come from some terrible lies. ✌
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