“I usually don’t like thinking about the future. I mean, let’s face it, you can’t predict what’s going to happen. But sometimes, the thing you didn’t expect is what you really wanted after all. Maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out where your going, and enjoy where your at.”
In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take, relationships we
were afraid to have and decisions we waited too long to make. ☹
Wagas na regret. That's how my state of mind is right now. Just finished watching "Introduction to Architecture," and all I can say is, natakot ako bigla to live to a big regret.
The movie was about a first love gone wrong between two young friends. Almost the same one I had. Haha. Oo. Loser ako when it comes to my first love. Maybe because fear got the best of me. And I easily gave up. Or maybe sobrang mixed up yung singnals at hindi lang talagang nagkaintindihan. Hay, basta. Let's just say that my first love was a disaster. A complete mess.
I seriously don't want to end up like the characters in the movie. They just let themselves be so absorbed in misery and just let go of their love so fast. Andami kayang chances and opportunities for them to get together. Siguro, tama nga yung kasabihang "kung kayo talaga, magiging kayo talaga sa huli." Kahit ano pa man ang mangyari. Kasi gagawa at gagawa kayo ng paraan not to let each other go.
But for me, I guess it would take me great courage to do this feat. Siguro, kasi I'm so scared to put all my feelings into the open. Baka gawin lang yun reason ng ibang tao to get the best of me. Or maybe I just don't like the feeling of being embarrassed. Or ayoko lang to be hurt. Kasi baka hindi ko kayanin. Kaya nga kahit, I already felt it. Yun. Denial to the max parin ang peg ng lola mo. Maybe all I need is a little push, or a sign from that person. Or something. Basta.
Sana hindi pa nga huli. Kasi parang wala na akong reason or hope to hold on. Baka wala na nga akong babalikan. Or maybe may iba na.
Would it still be worth to take a risk and take a leap. Or baka, masaktan lang ako.
Baka this time, talagang i-regret ko na ang lahat ng nangyari samin. I'm scared to live with regret all my life. Baka di ko kayanin.
Fr now, maybe I'll just cry myself to sleep. Kasi walang chance pa talaga ngayon. Sobrang labo na.
Just wishing and hoping na meron pa akong pwedeng balikan. Sana somehow, meron pa. Aasa pa ko while slowly dying.
Today, I finally changed my work permit to the much approved S-Pass. Which means I will be extended for another 2 year contract here in Singapore. I almost lost my way going to the Work Pass Centre. It's always so important to take note of the building names here in Singapore., like how Tanjong Pagar Plaza and Tanjong Pagar Complex are two completely different towers. Ugh. And don't ever go out without taking an umbrella ☂ with you. (Mom was right all along.)
In SG, unlike the Philippines, the weather is so unpredictable. One moment, it's all sunny and bright outside, then the next thing, it's raining cats and dogs. Plus, it's super no-no to get soaked here. It sort of gives you that "basang sisiw" effect and people would start to look at you either with a strange look or glare at you. Which is so uncomfortable, especially if you still have to travel for another 30 mins to reach home. ☹
Then, I shall officially be back to work again next Monday. Good thing the training venue will be just 2 train stops from our place. Teehee. Extra bedtime for me. ✌
Only problem is since I've been stuck on the black bandwagon for quite some time with my old job, I have no snappy clothes for my new office job. Which leaves me with no choice but to try to haggle some new shoes and tops tomorrow after church time. Good luck to me.
Also grabbed a quick sweet fix at our very much convenient McCafe with Rose, my housemate. Nomnom and catch up time with our hot fudge sundaes. ☺
I picked up Sara Bareilles' new EP, "Once Upon Another Time" today. And frankly, it's been nice. All 5 tracks are quite good. Kinda gives you that Adele feel when you start with the first track.
Fave track from the album would be #5 Bright Lights and Cityscapes. Grabeh. It's like my entire thoughts were written into the lyrics.
But I'm gonna love you You never have to ask I'm gonna love you 'Till you start looking back I'm gonna love you So right I wouldn't need a second chance
I personally think that this album is her best yet. I mean, her lyrics are truthful and she can make me cry. Honestly. She’s
amazing. Anyone can relate to her songs and instantly love it. She’s just the best thing ever.
Every time I listen to her, I just think that she deserves more
recognition or something because her songs are so true and close to the heart.
